There Is Sorrow on the Sea   By: Gilbert Parker (1862-1932)

By Gilbert Parker

I

"YORK FACTORY, HUDSON'S BAY, "23rd September, 1747.

"MY DEAR COUSIN FANNY, It was a year last April Fool's Day, I left you on the sands there at Mablethorpe, no more than a stone's throw from the Book in Hand Inn, swearing that you should never see me or hear from me again. You remember how we saw the coast guards flash their lights here and there, as they searched the sands for me? how one came bundling down the bank, calling, 'Who goes there?' You remember that when I said, 'A friend,' he stumbled, and his light fell to the sands and went out, and in the darkness you and I stole away: you to your home, with a whispering, 'God bless you, Cousin Dick,' over your shoulder, and I with a bit of a laugh that, maybe, cut to the heart, and that split in a sob in my own throat though you didn't hear that.

"'Twas a bad night's work that, Cousin Fanny, and maybe I wish it undone, and maybe I don't; but a devil gets into the heart of a man when he has to fly from the lass he loves, while the friends of his youth go hunting him with muskets, and he has to steal out of the backdoor of his own country and shelter himself, like a cold sparrow, up in the eaves of the world.

"Ay, lass, that's how I left the fens of Lincolnshire a year last April Fool's Day. There wasn't a dyke from, Lincoln town to Mablethorpe that I hadn't crossed with a running jump; and there wasn't a break in the shore, or a sink hole in the sand, or a clump of rushes, or a samphire bed, from Skegness to Theddlethorpe, that I didn't know like every line of your face. And when I was a slip of a lad ay, and later too how you and I used to snuggle into little nooks of the sand hills, maybe just beneath the coast guard's hut, and watch the tide come swilling in water daisies you used to call the breaking surf, Cousin Fanny. And that was like you, always with a fancy about everything you saw. And when the ships, the fishing smacks with their red sails, and the tall masted brigs went by, taking the white foam on their canvas, you used to wish that you might sail away to the lands you'd heard tell of from old skippers that gathered round my uncle's fire in the Book in Hand. Ay, a grand thing I thought it would be, too, to go riding round the world on a well washed deck, with plenty of food and grog, and maybe, by and by, to be first mate, and lord it from fo'castle bunk to stern rail.